Vision

This week I have been thinking about vision.

My husband is under contract to purchase the optometry practice where we both currently work. He is an optometrist and he has wanted to own his own practice since he decided he wanted to become an optometrist. His father is an optometrist and an entrepreneur. He owns his own practice, and my husband has wanted to work with him ever since he knew he wanted to be an optometrist as well. He has been working with his father now for eight years, and we are to purchase the practice at the end of next year.

Fighting cancer and dealing with everything that is involved with fighting cancer, we are not feeling comfortable with going into debt to purchase the practice. We do not feel comfortable with purchasing the practice if I am still fighting cancer by the time we are supposed to purchase.

So, what does all of this have to do with vision?

My husband and I do not really have a vision right now of what it is that we want to do with our lives--privately and professionally. We do want to defeat cancer, of course, but then what?

My father-in-law had a vision for his practice when he started his own business. He knew what he wanted it to be like and he implemented that vision. For the most part, it has become what he has wanted it to become. My husband and I do not have the same thing. We do not have a vision of our own. We do not really know what it is that we want. It is something that we are going to need to discuss for some time. I do not think that it is something that will be discovered right away.

Because of this lack of vision on top of my cancer treatments, I do not know what the future holds. I do know that I will not do something when I feel uncomfortable about it. There is pushing limits and there is doing something you are not supposed to do. I will not push if I do not feel right about it.